Friday, March 14, 2014

FAR CRY

"SHE'S A FAR CRY
FROM GOODBYE
AND EVERYWHERE SHE'S BEEN
SHE WON'T GO THERE AGAIN
SHE'S A STONE'S THROW
FROM THE PLACES SHE CAN GO
SHE WON'T GIVE UP
SHE'LL NEVER GIVE IN
SHE'S A FAR CRY
SUCH A FAR CRY,  FROM THEN"

     Spring. "Moving forward". It's kind of become my inner motto. I have tendencies to hold on to the past, and a bit afraid of change. Although we are told change is a good thing, and we know good things can come from it, it can be difficult to wholly swallow. And, I want to. I think sometimes it feels like if we change, we are losing who we are, and the parts of ourselves we actually DO like. I don't want to be that same person I was yesterday- but a better version. Change is a good thing. Change is a good thing. Change is.....
     My musician/songwriter friends can all understand that in this business, there is so much uncertainty in what the days will bring. There is a lot that is out of our control. Sometimes I feel like I am shooting at a moving target a thousand miles away, in the dark, on a windy day, while serpentining... and just when you finally begin to understand how to hit what you're going after, the target changes.
    So, I need SOME things to always stay the same. It gives me the comfort, and a little sense of control  I feel I am missing in this crazy world of music. I still need to go home. I need the mountains, the lake...the familiar.
     That being said, I have enjoyed moving beyond certain parts of my life. I am learning to let go of certain thought processes and 'things' a little more easily. It does feel good. I am a little more gentle on myself. I have less to prove. I don't need to carry all that baggage from the past. It's too heavy, and now I have room for new and better things to come knocking on my door.
     Far Cry was written a few years back.  The first line was inspired by Shawn Mullins when he spoke about his method for writing songs. The rest was written from snippets of thoughts from my life collected over the years on this topic - looking back at how far you've really come from some hard times, and how far you can still go. Spring is on the way. There is hope... enjoy.